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The Crying God Suddenly, I noticed a kid bit far from me, standing still. I walked toward and saw the kid was crying. The kid was alone and no one else was there, I looked around. I noticed the kid was wearing very old and dirty clothes, which were also ripped, hair was messy full of dust and dried tears had mixed with the dust on the cheeks. The kid hadn’t taken a shower in many days or maybe even weeks, I assumed. And how could the kid have taken a shower by own? As the kid was probably just 4 or 5 years old. Maybe no one was taking care of the kid or maybe there was no one left in kid’s life to care. I went close, gently comforted the child and asked, “Why are you crying?” The child looked at me and said something I couldn’t understand, it was Arabic. Then I tried to ask with hand gestures and by nodding my head. The child kept crying, saying something that I still couldn’t understand. I was getting desperate to do something to calm the kid. And I thought about offering the food I had packed that morning before heading out to visit that “Warzone in Gaza”. I wiped the child’s tears, took out the food box and extended it toward the child. The moment child saw the food packed in the transparent plastic box, not only did the crying stop but a smile appeared too. That smile on the kid’s lips and the tears in my eyes came together. But I held myself back and gently handed over the box. The kid grabbed the food with both tiny hands and started running, running with joy and excitement without saying a word to me. And I didn’t want to hear “thank you” either. All I wanted was to stop those tears and I had done that. That was everything to me. But something made me curious, the kid didn’t open the box and didn’t eat the food but ran away. So many questions popped into my head: Why and where did the kid run away?Why did the kid stop crying and start smiling just by seeing the food but did not eat it?Where did the sudden joy come from?Wasn’t the kid really hungry?What was the kid trying to say in Arabic? To find the answers, I decided to follow the kid. I walked in the direction the child had run. I didn’t see anyone at first, so I kept going. After walking around 200 meters, I saw a broken house, probably destroyed by bombings, I assumed. In front of it, a very skinny dog was frolicking near an old and torn curtain. I moved nearer because I could hear some faint sounds coming from behind the curtain. I slightly moved the curtain aside, tilted my neck to the left and peered inside. Oh my God! What I saw… I couldn’t control myself this time, I broke down. I started crying like I had just seen something beyond human understanding. That 4–5 years s old child was feeding that food to small puppies and happily sharing it with them, maybe none of them had eaten in days. I had never seen that much love and care for someone before. I fell to my knees and cried uncontrollably. Then the baby looked at me, came closer and said something in Arabic again. But I understood what the child meant: kid was asking why I was crying. I replied in English, “You’re a great soul or maybe you’re God in a human body.” The kid didn’t understand my words but wiped my tears and extended the same food box toward me with both of tiny hand and care in eyes. Ohh… it touched my soul and my heart just melted. I nodded my head, as I didn’t want any food. That child had already fed my soul. As I was still crying, the child came closer and hugged me, so tightly. And that was the moment I felt as if the whole of humanity, the universe and God itself had gripped me with immense love. ~ Alex D Rox

Lifafa – The Bag of Happiness I remember those old days when we needed nothing to be happy—just a lifafa or plastic bag was more than enough. We would tie it with a thread and run through the streets and together, we and that plastic bag would float in the air with full of joy, zeal and excitement. It wasn’t even a kite but who cared? We were in a different world where everything was enjoyable. I also remember and I can see it now, we never tried or forced ourselves to be happy. We never even thought about what happiness was because it was simply our nature and no matter the situation, we just enjoyed it. Ah, those were the days… but now, we think happiness requires high-maintenance things. We seek it in costly items, in status, and in people—yet we still can’t find it. Why? Is it because we are seeking happiness in objects or people? No, that’s not the case. The issue is “we are seeking happiness”, we are trying to attain it but what I have realized is: “Happiness is not something to get; it is a state to be in because it is our true nature.” ~ Alex D Rox

“Actually it’s not Lamborghini, Apple or Gucci which can only make a person happy.” I remember when I was a kid then just a ice-cream stick was enough to make me so delighted and having those 10 pennies given by my father as pocket money were enough to make me feel like richest person on the earth. But, because we became much ambitious and so called broad minded, so to taste a teaspoon of happiness we put efforts full buckets and still happiness isn’t guaranteed. -Today when I saw those kids playing with snow and I got paused for a moment then I was thinking, snow doesn’t cost anything and even it’s not a new thing for those kids but still they were so enthusiastic, excited and “happy”. -I clicked some pictures of snow and sent it to one of my friend, it wasn’t a big thing for me but my friend got so “happy” like I gave something extraordinary or exceptional. -Afterwards in office I helped my coworker as I always do, my coworker always gets so “happy” and shows gratitude like I’m a savior but I’m not. And at the end of the day now when I’m wondering about whole day, I also feel so “happy”, blessed and peace in my heart just because of small things and thinking, “actually it’s not Lamborghini, Apple or Gucci which can only make a person happy. – Alex D Rox

Today again when I opened facebook then it asked, “what’s on your mind?” and I have a thought to share. This time “my phone” taught me something simple but much effective and powerful. From last few days I’m facing some lagging issue with my phone and it’s functioning too slow then I was thinking what should I do to improve it’s performance, so I checked and went through all areas such as file manager, apps manager and gallery then I found so many items like unnecessary files, energy sucking apps and unwanted pictures are stored in my phone for no reason then I removed everything and in result my phone became normal like before. Everything was quite simple until I got that another thought, which is “I just related my phone with our lives”, it’s also lagging somewhere and goes slow sometimes. I noticed and replaced unnecessary files to unnecessary regrets or fears, energy sucking apps to energy sucking people and unwanted pictures to those unwanted tasks which we do daily. So I learned, “we just need to check and clean our life’s system on routine basis for being normal”. – Alex D Rox

Well, I’m bit drunk, Well, I’m bit drunk, bit dizzy and it’s 12 o’clock of midnight according to Korean time but still I’m conscious and I was wondering; is that success, money, love, prayer or good health which can give you peace of mind? But I think it’s; a life lived with low expectations, with helping others, with serving to humanity, with understanding people and most important, life lived with surrendering yourself to your parents can give you immense and infinite peace. – Alex D Rox

The Dark Even though darkness may be permanent, I genuinely don’t understand why people are afraid of it and perceive it negatively. People appreciate dark gadgets, phones, and costumes, yet there’s an odd aversion to dark skin. Life commences in darkness when we open our eyes and concludes in darkness when we close them. Dark is the unwavering support during times of pain. The world originates from darkness, and when the entire world fades away, only darkness remains. Dark has no expectations but silently sustains us every time our expectations shatter. We never hesitate to act in the dark; it says nothing but listens to everything. Dark is loyal and honest, safeguarding our secrets without revealing them to anyone. There is no existence of light without dark; it resides in the womb, the grave, space, and the universe. Dark is the beginning, the end and infinite. –  Alex D Rox, D as in “Dark”